31/7

friday again...
very fast..
just saw something make me cry..
actually i dunno wat for..
and..why i wanna cry bout tat..
stupid me!


4"her"~
something...
i understand wats means by FRIENDS FOREVER & EVER...
watever eu like...
nothing gonna change...
no one can force eu to do anything..

and now...
i really understand wat eu mean..
i'll try my best...
sometime dunno y..
im just not dare to talk with eu..
wat's reason?!
i really dunno..
but at least i got try must best..
i tried to look at eu..
but actually my heart beat very fast..


and....
i think i have to think further more..
sometimes i'm having lessons class but my brain is not on study..
overall..
i'm just dream & damn moody suddenly..
even wat teacher said i din listen at all..

wed...
i'm still remember ..
our eng teacher call me stand up to read the passage (just 3rd paragraph)
actually i'm moody at tat moment..
maybe teacher saw me dreaming..
maybe tat's the reason she call me stnad up..
but i just read only..
teacher keep call me repeat wat i have read..
mayb she cant hear wat i'm reading..
==


everyday
i'm in school either keep on doin my work non~stop or sleep to control myself not thinkin bout those things..
i hope did like tat can solve my problem..
dun think bout tat...
tat's my way to forget...


anyways..
i tot i'll recieved ur msg everyday...
but not...
dy 2nd day..
eu said still will acc me but....
i not dare to msg eu btwn i'm just scare i'm disturbing eu...

i'll try my best!!!
thx^^

*n3ver sleEp tidE Last nighT*

25/7 *** 11a.m



有些事情不是说能重来就重来..
想过自己的生活/新的段恋情..
只可惜不知道自己该怎么做..
不想再想起什么什么的回忆..
过了..也就过了..
也许跟现在差很多..
可是不想再想那么多..
有时真的会疯..
明明就不要再想..
可是..看到某样东西还是有什么关于他的..
很突然的..眼泪掉下..
不过我觉得这是回忆..也不代表些什么吧..??
至少..我知道..我对他是没有所谓以前那种不懂怎么说的那种感觉了..






ps:如果现在有个她/他..我觉得这个他/她能陪着我..至少我想的..都是现在的他/她..也希望这个人块出现..

25/7 ~ (3a.m)

is't i'm still lik "her"??
dunno actually..
my fren told me many times..
she said
"sometimes you think you're totally don't like a person anymore..
but actually not! you're still lik her but you don't know and don't even realise it.."
hmmmm.......
maybe she's correct..
but i'm still confusing..
i just saw "her" blog before half an hour..
it make me feel like..
haha..
i'm just like a fool gal..
erm....
maybe just me...
i'm the one who willing to do everything to her..
i means now..
those things is being lame now..
i think she don't even realize sometimes that someone is still care bout her...



every night that message with..
who she needed & missed is obviously not me..
whatever i did is wrong..
even 'i like her' is exactly wrong wrong wrong!!
i know i shouldn't like her..
i did those stupid stuffs...
just a week together be a couple???
haha..
what's the funny thing is this..
i did very very very wrong..
anyway..
but i'm really care bout this week..
with eu..
everything is just a dream..
when you wake that time..
evrything is not in front of you dy..
you'll get hurt much..
better forget those stuffs..








you must do it!! don't think bout her anymore..eu can! no matter how long..but eu must do it..

23/7

不知道什么原因..
是为什么..我跟他在学校有时突然好像陌生了很多..
有时候真的不知道说些什么..
这感觉让我不敢面对面看着他..不敢跟他说话..
到底是什么原因??
我很想知道..
他的眼神让我觉得我们好像是陌生的那样..
为什么会那样呢??
为什么不能跟以前一样那么的自然..
hihihaha的..
ps:也许是我自己的问题
我不知道自己再怕什么..

21/7

我们的回忆..也许你已经忘得一干二净..
而我??
这些回忆还在我脑海里..
不停得飘浮着..

tAt'S my FeeLs~

17/7

你还是走了..
我有点不舍..
该说点什么..
我不是哭了..
是阳光折射眼睛也 红了颜色..
不懂为什么快乐..
像冰淇淋口中溶化得 特別冲动..
我还舍不得 , 你不要走 , 能不能夠让时间回头..




18/7

这一天..
我想跟着你..
跟你说你最爱的笑话..
我想以後都能在一起..
每天想着你已变成习惯..
一直幻想你在我身边..
牵着你的手 ..我和你甜蜜的走..




19/7

猜不透你最近是好是坏的沉默..
我也不想去追问太多..
但是他为彼此的戏上了锁..

猜不透相处会比分开还寂寞..
两个人都只是得过且过..
无法感受每次触摸..
是真的 , 是热的..

如果乎远乎近的洒脱是你要的自由..
那我宁愿回到一个人生活..
如果乎冷乎热的温柔是你的借口 , 那我宁愿对你从没认真过..

到底这感觉谁对谁错??
我已经不想追求..
越是在乎的人越是猜不透..




this all lyrics i just wanna tell "her" tat's wat my feels...

sadLy~

tis morining im just nothing to do...
long time never on my fs and msn too...


is time to reply those comment...
sudddenly saw "HER" blog address is writen besides the personal msg....

when im just search it..
i just feel she's mentioning someone...

ya..
mayb i'm just jealous bout something...
NO!!! i cant keep tis attitute anymore....
darnn stupiak~
actually i shouldn't have tis feelings anymore...
is just a normal thing..

***dun need to jealous k

just.... feel wanna cry now...
but dunno y...
wat happen to me??
iissshhh~
wat am i doing now??
yaya.. mayb i'm craziieee!!
==

my gym competition is coming...
is just on nx wed...
btwn i'm very streess bout it...
coz i already stop my practise for a long time...

pray for me ...
hope everything is going easyly...


~end~